81 day

25 days left...

On work is some changes - we work 4 waitresses on shift. When hotel is full (more than 300 people), it is ok, but now we have about 120 people. Too many employees. Manager decided to replace some people to another hotel... We still do not know who will go there.

I have not the best relationship with my colleagues. It makes me sad, and it is so hard to keep on smiling with such stuff on mind.

I am so emotional, maybe too much... When I see a child without teeth, smiling to me... i wanna cry of the beauty of this moment! I go to the kitchen to tell about it to my colleagues, but they just shout at me that they are indifferent and i need not to touch them at work... - why they just can't be as happy with such small things around as i am... ???? I always notice everything around and it makes me feel better... and of course i want to share this with others. THEY MUST UNDERSTAND ME TOO !!!
This work, so far away from home, is so hard, really hard!

It's hard to stay human.

I really try hard not to change myself in worse way...

I met a lot of nice people from a lot of countries, and maybe it's destiny, cause some of them are really useful.

I am shocked a bit with myself, cause I had so many situations where I could become crazy... but I still am OK...

If I do not think about some problems, they just disappear after some time...


soon i'll go to work, soon the same faces, same work... BUT IT'S OK ! 25 days left!!!